Falling behind

I am so behind and hopefully after the holidays it will slow down and I can get a better blogging schedule going. I have been so busy and feeling miserable to top it off. I hate to rush Christmas but I am so glad that it is almost here and over and past. It is sad to say that but I just don't feel like it this year. I have not wrapped but a few more presents since last post. I just can't last long. My back won't let me. Hubby is not around  and I have no one else to ask. So I am struggling right now. His busiest time is Christmas (he works for the largest shipping co as a manager). He is even working on Christmas Eve to help with packages which is not his normal job. He is an IT manager so it is definitely out of his normal duties. But, as a manager you do what you have to do to get things done and keep the company running smoothly.

Funny how all of the people at the church and other areas of life that say if you need help to call or if we can ever help you let us know just ignore when you need them or stop asking for fear of being asked to commit and help. So, I give! I don't know that I have it in me to care to befriend anyone anymore.  

Labor is weeks away and I have no one to help with my kids. I fear I will be in labor alone again... :( Well I have one possibility maybe two but I am praying that happens so that I will know my kids are safe and with someone I trust. The one is my Best friend from Childhood that is hopefully moving here soon (will post on that next) and another is a girl here I know that has two kids too. But her schedule is so busy and with two of her own it is hard to expect she will be able to help without much notice.  

I am trying to remember that God is not going to give me more than I can handle.