I really should get a belly shot. A friend of mine has offered to do some for me. I just need to take her up on it. I know this is my last pregnancy and I have no real belly shots from the other 3. But, I feel like a swollen mass of blubber.
I swear even my doctor was a butt about it the other day. This man has known me for gosh almost 7 years now and this is my 3rd child he has delivered. It blows my mind that he who was during the whole time I have known him until recently a good 300 lbs had made a comment to me... When I first started going there I was probably 110 lbs. Now a lot more but my health has been a disaster. Anyway... I was put on this stupid gestational diabetes diet and have lost a few lbs. He first griped at me about that. Then said But well lets face it you are no Kate Middleton anyway.. WTF?? REALLY jerko??? I was with my kids so I kept quiet. But I am a little peeved. That and the other perinatologist and his comments last appointment. I want new doctors.. too bad I am too "high risk" and no one wants me. lol
So at 28 weeks I am ready for this to be over. I know don't wish it away but I am miserable. I can barely walk let alone get anything accomplished. The barely walking is because of pain and lack of pain meds. I have been trying not to take them and I am miserable. The cold weather and rain has definitely made it worse. I am unable to sleep, sit,stand comfortably. It is so weird I feel like the baby is literally going to drop out any minute. I know I felt this way with the others but not this early. Makes me wonder how far this pregnancy will make it.. I also am having issues stabilizing my blood sugar. I fear the insulin is going to happen. :( :(
I am going to look into some good pregnancy support pillows. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know. I need something. I have tried many of the pillows I have at home for help and no luck. I have real feather pillows, imitation allergen free feather pillows, soft, fluffy,foam. hard etc. I use the original boppy for sitting up to help with pain. I actually use a couple of them. I love the support from them. Just they are not comfy to sleep with.
Done with my complaints! :)
Baby is moving lots and that is fun. No idea what his name will be yet. We are leaning towards Timothy Andrew or Timothy Richard. But, It is very possible that will change. :)
I would like to start off by giving you a little background about myself and my condition. I was in my pre-teens when I realized that I was hurting. The pain was ignored by the adults in my life and not until I was married and on my own at 18 was I able to find out a bit of why I was hurting. My scoliosis was pretty bad at that point and has continued to worsen with each chlid that I have had. I started having fibromyalgia symptoms right about this time as well. They have only worsened.
After many years and dozens of doctors and hospitals later and more frustration than I can even remember, I have been diagnosed with:
Vitamin D deficiency,
hypersomnia,
Insomnia
Severe Scoliosis
Chronic Pain
Degenerating Disc Disease
Sciatica
Central Stenosis
Arthritis *in my back*
Fibromyalgia (and yes all of the fun things that come with fibro)
Severe Asthma
Chronic sinusitis
recurrent Kidney infections-- waiting on final diagnosis of IC &Overactive bladder
Past Eating Disorder- mostly recovered
IBS
Over 25 Ulcers in stomach
CFS
Migraines
psoriassis
Irregular menstrual cycle
Acne Rosacea (face)
Not able to go past stage 2 of sleep.
They have run many other tests recently (mri, bloodwork,etc.) Hopefully to get some more answers. Some of the tests were to test for MS and other neurological disorders and immune system disorders.
I am not sure what is goign to come in the near future for me. I take it a day at a time. My dreams of being a nurse are over. I can't sit/stand or do any heavy lifting or bending. I love to write. I know that God has a purpose for me. I think that over the past few months it has hit me. Would I be taking the time to write any blog at all if I were able to be working still? No, I would work long hours and be with the kids a little and go to bed. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. I am going through this horrible pain that often has me rolled up into a ball crying for a reason. Everything I have faced in the past will help me now to reach others. I pray that God will allow me to reach others that don't know him. I pray that he will help me to find the strength through my pain to put the emotion that I feel from the pain into writing.
I hope that my blog will be one that others dealing with health problems can come to and can find someone that is here for them and that cares. That if you are someone dealing with pain right now and you need a friend that you will reach out. I do care. I have come to learn that I have because of my illness lost most of the friends I have made in real life. Again, this is something that happens for a reason. I know that even when I feel alone and like I can not go on. That, if I just listen that God is there for me. I think that he is going to use me and I am ready to be a willing servant. I do hope that I will be able to post some information that you will find useful.
Look forward to getting to know many others! Please comment and let me know you are out there. I would love to talk to you!
God Bless
Donna
I hope to have many conversations with you through this blog, and I know that we’ll all benefit from sharing the techniques we’ve learned for coping with chronic pain and illness.
Thanks for stopping by!
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